For the Days That You Feel Like Crying
This past week has been rough….
Long hours and very little return at work has me feeling like what's the point?
Why am I working so hard?
Leaving work Friday I was in tears on my way home and had to take a moment to remind myself that I do not work this hard for my own personal gain. I do it because I know that in the end, it will all pay off and somewhere there is a silver lining.
As a mother, my "mommy-guilt" sometimes takes over and makes me feel like I am a terrible person and because I know I'm not the only one, I begin to feel that it's only fair if I share what these days and feelings have taught me to do.
For the days you feel like crying, trust me, they will come, take a moment to disconnect from the outside world and connect with yourself.
Phones, computers, emails, DVR recordings, social media, work, home, children (easier said than done), social media (yes I said it twice) TURN THEM OFF. Put them away. Send them to grandma’s house.
Whatever you need to do...do it!
Now that you've disconnected from those things, find a quiet space it could be your bedroom or bathroom (my personal fave).
Dry your eyes.
Blow your nose.
Remember your “why.”
What or who do you have that keeps you motivated or keeps you in check and aligned with the path you are on and the person you are becoming? Your bestie? Your spouse? Your children? What goal are you trying to achieve? Paying off debt? Losing 20 pounds? Trying to be a better parent? Up for a promotion?
Whatever it is. Whoever they are. Remember them.
Think about the life you'll have or the the way that extra 20 lbs off your back will make you feel. Think about the extra money you'll have so that you can do more of the things you love. Imagine your relief when Sallie Mae takes you off of their call list.
Think about the peace of mind you'll gain….the freedom.
Decide for yourself that whatever you are experiencing that has brought you to the point of tears is only temporary. And your anguish is fleeting. Dwell on the fact that even the people and things that betray you or disappoint you are all part of the plan.
It's okay to cry. It's okay to feel down. It's okay to fell defeated. But understand that you can't stay there. You have goals to accomplish, people to prove wrong and happiness to gain. Accept the things you cannot change and find the courage to change the things you can. Your “why” is too important to leave hanging.
You are too important to let down.
My reason is my cheetos loving, happy go lucky, "Mommy, I can do it myself", two year old Jaxson. He is currently the sole reason I choose to get up every morning. The reason I moved to Texas for a "do over" at life. The reason I cannot give up.
My prayer today is to always remember my why. In my times of sadness and overwhelming depression I ask to be reminded that I am not doing this for nothing. Everything I have gone through has a purpose and a reason behind it. I pray for strength. I pray that mountains will be moved and fear will be non-existent. I pray for peace.
Peace and love,